FOR ME, that time is “THAT” time…you know?

I went off the pill back in May and, personally, I think that is one of the worst decisions I have ever made…I am SERIOUSLY tempted to go BACK on the pill (I even have the prescription in hand).

Let me be the first to say, I am not a wuss. I have a ridiculously high pain tolerance and I am usually the one to just “suck it up”. Since May, that has been damn near impossible.

I have been calling in sick one day per month so I could just scream in pain in the comfort of my own home – it is uncomfortable to sit, stand, walk, bend over backwards, curl in a fetal position, stand on my head, you name it, I have tried it to no avail.

I got the “surprise” at work today and I popped 2 extra strength tylenol, followed by a Mars bar that I would have killed somebody for if I didn’t have $1.75 in my purse or if the machine had eaten my money. Luckily for me (and for all those involved), the process went smoothly and WOW! An hour later and I am sitting here pain free and happy…imagine that!!!

Now I feel like I can actually GO home and make the somewhat healthy (at least not take out) meal that I had planned for the evening, I can hop on the Wii and do my days workout for the 30 day challenge (which is going great!) and I can possibly fit in an hour long walk for the dog. Even better is that I re-arranged my day to fit IN that chocolate bar!! How sweet is that??

Anyway, I should also note here that I saw ANOTHER loss on the scale this weekend, much smaller than last weeks and smaller than what I saw in the middle of last week, but still, 3 lbs is nothing to cry about!

On that note though, my goals for this week are to: 1) not look at the scale during the week and 2) to pack my lunches and plan my outfits the night before (I am just hating the “rush” in the morning!!)

Today’s Menu (it’s not the GREATEST)

Breakfast: Carnation instant breakfast

Snack: 100 cal cheese nips

Lunch: 2/3 cup leftover beercan chicken, 3/4 cup potatoes and 1 cup asparagus, mini aero bar (STILL needed chocolate!)

Snack: Mars Bar (heaven!)

Dinner: Blue menu hamburger on thin bun with cheddar and 1 ready crisp bacon strip, 1.5 cups salad

Dessert: not sure – maybe a cookie or a leftover tart…

Exercise: Wii Active

I haven’t had much time for posting. I was training the new receptionist at work and then the weekend was fairly busy, but mostly I just stayed away from the computer (I needed some relaxation time!). Then now I am still away from my desk but finally reconnected to the world!!! It’s nice!

Anyway…so this weekend was alright. I didn’t work out NEARLY as much as I would like (NONE until Monday) and I ate out on Friday night and Sunday for lunch AND dinner. HOWEVER, I made decent choices (except for Sunday lunch, not SO great – BBQ Bacon Burger with Yam fries!!!!) but I felt good about it all around…and now I am making up for it this week with eating well and exercising daily.

I snuck a peek on the scale today (I usually do mid-week, though I need to stop it!!!) Although the number was GREAT and kept me motivated to get through the day!!! I really love the feeling when you know you have control hey??

My goals this week are:

 to exercise on all weekdays plus one weekend day.

Drink at LEAST 80 oz of water.

Stick to my calorie budget while making tasty meals!!

Pretty easy if I do say so myself!!

I think that’s all I have got for today!! Still busy at work!!!

Today’s Menu:

Breakfast: Liberte vanilla yogurt with granola and raspberries

Snack: Crispy mini snack pack

Lunch: Veggie sandwich with cream of broccoli and cheddar soup

Dinner: Chicken Stirfry (with lots of veggies!!!) over noodles and maybe a side of fresh bread

Dessert: maybe a thin bar?? I have tons at home!!

Ordinarily I would use mornings like today to pick up McDonalds and eat breakfast at work…I decided though that I would rather have the planned tacos for dinner and have a twix bar I bought while grocery shopping for dessert…seriously, I don’t mean to go on and on about a great week…but it has been pretty darn good!!!

I was training the new receptionist at work today which is another reason why I didn’t get a chance to post. It was nice to have a steady day since sometimes I don’t always have enough work to fill up the day.

I also have a little “project” for work this weekend…if I can pull it off, it’s going to mean some pretty great things for me and for my future, not only with the company…I am hoping it all pans out!!!

I don’t think I will get a chance to post tomorrow as I am still training…but I am STILL staying accountable…I also think I will post one day on the weekend (I rarely do that)…yes, yes, I think that would be wonderful!

Like I said, I am keeping in touch to say that this week is STILL going wonderful…I forgot how great this felt!!

Today’s menu:

Breakfast: 2 pcs toast w/ pb, 1 cup milk (yes, that’s right)

Lunch: Shrimp with piri piri sauce, green and red peppers and red onion over 4 cheese risotto, sf jello chocolate pudding

Snack: 24 g maui wowee skinny sticks (I was STARVING!!!)

Dinner: 2 small flour tortillas, 2 oz lean ground beef, 1/3 cup refried beans, 20g light cheese, tomatoes, 2 Tbsp sour cream and 1.5 cups southwest salad on the side

Dessert: TWIX! YUMMY!!!!

Exercise: Wii Active

Every time that I feel like I will buckle down and “do it” – I ALWAYS sabotage myself mid-week. I am not sure if it’s because I feel like because I have been doing so well that I feel the need to sabotage, or usually its because I step on the scale, see that I have been doing well/badly and throw caution to the wind and either reward myself, or if I was doing badly, just say “eff it”.

This morning I stepped on the scale and saw a pretty decent number…especially since I really have only been “back in the game” for about two days. And today I had the opportunity to sabotage myself because we were going out for lunch for a coworkers birthday.

Anyway, given the opportunity, I decided “eff it” – I did NOT put in all this hard work this week AND before to throw it down the drain. I ordered a grilled chicken pita with a side of tomato soup. When the meal came, they had my soup on the side and had added fries to the plate. This would ordinarily be a moment where I would say “screw it” and eat all the fries. But I DIDN’T!!!! I counted out 8 fries (good ones of course) and those were all I ate, and I counted them all!

Seriously, it feels good to have control again…last night I decided that I didn’t need TWO smokies – so I only had one but had a couple more fries. Then I decided to wait until later to have dessert because I had to run to my Dad’s. I DIDN’T get a chance to do the 30 day Shred – I know, that’s pretty bad. But instead i pulled out the Wii Fit for 45 minutes (super hula, advanced step and boxing – and about 6 minutes of balance followed by a couple of yoga poses). I also played around with EA Active a little bit as well and decided to do the 30 day challenge on that. So I DO feel like I got in a bit of activity.

OH and dessert. So I postponed dessert and was going to have a cupcake when I got home (leftovers from my friends’ wedding) but then I was like “well, i have had a LOT of cupcakes lately” (between the two weddings) and I would have to guesstimate, so instead I grabbed a small cone from McDonald’s on the way home from my dad’s. Not the BEST choice, but seriously, I felt like I was treating myself and I TOTALLY fit it into my day!! It felt like a bit of an indulgence without taking it too far!

Today’s Menu:

Breakfast: same old – 2 pcs toast, 1 Tbsp light pb, 1 cup milk (I NEED to stop sleeping late!)

Lunch: Chicken pita, 1 cup tomato soup w/2 crackers, 8 french fries

Snack: Apple and single serving Edam cheese, possibly 100 cal Sweet and Salty bar if I have to wait long at the doctors office.

Dinner: Beef stew and 2 biscuits (YUM!)

Dessert: 100 Cal Oreo ice cream bar

Other than that we took an almost 2 hour walk with the dog and my niece. It was really nice out until about 9 pm and we started getting eaten alive by bugs!!! It was ridiculous!! We didn’t walk the entire time, but I would say that we were walking for about 1.5 hours or so (we had to drop something off at a friend’s house so we sat and chatted for a while). My niece was so quiet and shy around my friends and then we got her home and she was a little firecracker!! I love that kid!!

Eats yesterday were great! Seriously, I was really happy with myself. This is one of the first times in a LONG time that I didn’t overeat! Everything I had was delicious and filling, I was going to have a snack when I got home from the walk, but I just opted for my planned mini ice cream sandwich instead and hopped on the wii fit…perfect!!

I wish I had something fabulous and exciting to talk about, but I don’t!!

Today’s Menu:

Breakfast: 2 pcs toast w/pb, 1 cup milk (I need to get up earlier to make something different!)

Snack: Thinsations Cheesecake Bar (trying to use up my ”junk”)

Lunch: Leftovers (4 oz roast, 3/4 cup potatoes, 3/4 cup green beans, 1/2 cup gravy)

Snack: apple and 100 cal chocolate covered pretzels – I forgot my cheese

Dinner: 2 blue menu smokies, mccain oven fries and chopped veggies with a dab of hummus

Dessert: 100 cal Oreo ice cream bar

OOOH, I noticed today is FULL of 100 cal packs/bars…hopefully I will use them all up soon!

Exercise: 30 day Shred, 1/2 hour of wii fit – would love a walk but I don’t think I can fit it in tonight…